Yesterday it was the presentation of our ideas concerning the corridors and lounges of a huge school building in Seinäjoki.

They adored our ideas.

They said we could go own and do the actual plan including the cost estimate and so on, "if you still want to continue with this, that is."

Boy, do we want to!!!

The only obstacle is our teacher. She was the one how gave us the expression that this would only be a small task - that they'd probably never put it into practice.  And now she is the one trying to block our enthusiasm. She claims we won't have enough time in the schedule.

I can't understand this. We have the opportunity of our lives in front of us, and she wants us to go back to the classroom to study what we could be doing in real life!

But we are determined to go on with this. Fuck the schedules.

 
The Habitare Furniture and Design fair was nice but at the same time very, very frustrating.

I don't want it! 

Keep your things. 

Keep your fancy carpets, fabrics, chairs, tables, lamps. 

I don't want them. 

Somehow I feel sick. One has to be in a certain mood to accept the muchness of everyting.

Today, I'm not in the mood.

Perhaps I'll never be.
 

I've been training with the new camera at work, and it is lovely.

It's just that I feel so sad I don't have more time for photography. Me taking photos - it always feels so shallow. I mean, I love doing it, but somehow I can't get myself to learn about the technical stuff. It feels bad to use those automatic programmes, when you know you could be doing so much better with manual setting.

Maybe this is just my way. Learning by doing. At least I've tried using different f-numbers and times and so on. Unfortunately this also means that there are bound to be tens of v. shait photos per film/card.

With this digital system around, it feels like cheating. Anyone can take "good" pictures. If you take hundred shots, there has to be at least one  very good photo!

Well, so what?

Maybe it i just that I feel sorry for the "Real Photographers". I don't consider myself as one, no. I'm just someone who likes to express herself through photos, someone who likes to play. I like seeing it through a lense.

And I do like when there are no heads missing from a family portrait. 


                                   

    




     
         






 

It's lunch hour. Outside it is pouring rain, inside the air is dry and organized.

Lately I haven't been thinking that creatively. The job is having the best of me, but I'm not too concerned. This will be over in September, and we'll see what happens then.

The Midsummer was spent at my girlfriend's parents' summer cabin by the sea. We had very lovely time although at some point I thought there were too many of us there (20 people at its best). Luckily we brought our own little tent, which also goes by the name of "Our First Home".

I did some sketching there.  It was nice, although there  was no peace whatsoever. I hate when people go all ohlalaa when they see somebody doing sketches. At times I'm almost ashamed to draw in public. It seem like doing it immediately makes you a special person, and I don't want to be that. I want to do what I do without any ridiculous titles like that.

Oh, I was to talk about the sea... Well, everything was so diffrent to what I'm used to. I come from the inner country, the lake area, so the waves and the coarse hay of the banks is all it takes to impress me.  I have always been fond of lakes and their shores, as I've always been afraid of the sea. But now it seems I'm starting to fall in love with the sea as well.

I even spotted some glow-worms, for the second time in my life. They are amazing.
 

At work. Trying to fight against afternoon sleepiness. I've banned myself from chocolate, so coffee it is. Everybody's gone for holidays anyway. Why bother?

I am working in a business consulting office. Lol.

Appart from occasional photographing sessions, this summer job's got nothing to do with what I've previously done. The busy people, the grey suits and the clacking of high heels. It's all here.

I am the outsider, but somehow  I like it. 

It gives a certain freedom. I don't need to shine.

Righteo. This is my new journal. Welcome!

I've been writing my journal in Finnish for a couple of years now, but somehow I feel that isn't quite enough. I do quite a lot of surfing on different sites and forums, and through that I've made a lot of new friends. I don't know if they'll be interested in reading this, but I thought I'd at least give them a change! After all, I can't expect them all to learn Finnish.

I don't feel very confident about writing in English. My maternal language is Finnish, and that will remain as my number one language, no matter what. I know my English isn't that great,  but I simply decided to give it a shot! We'll see how it goes.

I think this journal is going to be a very mixed one. I intend to write mostly about art and design, but as I see them as an essential part of my personal life, I am bound to write about my personal life, too.

I am studying to be a designer. My main field is interior textile design, but that doesn't say much. I'm interested in all kind of design and designers. I love graphic design although I don't know too much about it. For me, design is a form of art and self-expression. It isn't about the form - it is about the content.